Sometimes in life, we encounter fear.
As a new Blogger, I have to tell you I have faced a lot of fear these past couple months. I had no idea what I was getting into when I fired up my free wordpress.com blog. I just wanted to write something.
Throughout my life, I have been told that I should write. Deciding what to write, was always my question. I knew that at this time in my life I could not write a book and see it to the end. Someday I will, but amongst raising children, running a house, and homeschooling, writing a book is just not on my agenda. The next best thing was a blog.
Blogging was this undiscovered territory for me.
I have always read articles on the internet but for some reason, I had never paid attention to the person writing the blog. Even more so I had never thought about how much effort and strength and determination it takes to write a blog. Or the fear involved.
Fear of Failure
This is a huge one for me. Fear of failing. Failing completely and falling on my face, in front of everyone, my family, my friends, the world. When I published my first few posts I tried to remain anonymous. I wasn’t sure. I didn’t want to take the step of making it known that I was trying something new. That I might just completely crash and burn and everyone will see it. As the weeks went on I realized that I needed to have other people read my blog. I wanted to know what they thought or just that someone out there in the internet world was actually reading it. Then I got my first view and I just sat there. I was so excited to see that someone was reading my stuff.
Fear of making mistakes
The reality of someone reading my blog unearthed so many other fears for me. Now that someone was seeing what I wrote, I started to question if I had made a mistake. Am I good enough? Are they just laughing at my post I spent hours editing and tweaking to perfection? I wasn’t sure if I had just wasted all my time on something no one even cared about reading. Instead, I decided that even though I was most likely making mistakes at least I was trying. I was taking action to improve my life and hopefully others. Mostly, I just wanted my blog to touch someone’s heart. Even if it was just one person because then I would know I accomplished my goal.
Fear of writing badly
I started to question my writing ability. It’s been a whole lot of years since college and while I got straight A’s back then, I have spent the last 14 years raising children. In those 14 years, I have learned baby speak and how to talk to children. It takes a whole other skillset to write something that adults will read, or more so be interested in. I doubt that other parents are going to be interested in learning about what science project we did today or how many loads of laundry I got done. Who was I to write something? I felt like I was nothing. I was insignificant and worthless. But then I got my first comment. That changed everything. I did touch someone’s heart and that inspiration kept me going on the days I wanted to quit.
Fear of not knowing enough
Then another fear surfaced, I did not know enough to write anything. In my head, I feel like a jack of all trades. I am good at a lot of things but an expert at none. I can tell you how to cook a Thanksgiving dinner using recipes from other people and how to bait a fishing pole and where to catch the most fish. But I am not an expert at any of it. So where do I start? What do I write about when I have no specific education in a subject?
So, I thought really hard about what I did know. Why I was writing, to begin with, and the message I was trying to get across. It has been an amazing experience. Since I decided to write, I have discovered I actually do know a lot about things. That maybe what I do know is enough to help others. That I do have things of value to write about.
Fear of technical stuff
This has been my newest fear. I did not realize there would be such a gigantic learning curve when it comes to building a website. Plug-ins and Themes and SEO. Somedays I am in over my head. But on the days, I do figure out something, I feel accomplished. Like making rich pins on Pinterest. It might be simple to some people but to me, it was a new skill I needed to learn. I learned that I needed to spring for a paid site and that if nothing else I was putting the money towards an education for myself. I was learning new skills that will help me in the future.
Don’t let fears stop you. Don’t compare yourself to other bloggers that may be farther ahead or have more views than you. Everyone has to start somewhere. Every time you face a fear and push past them you are learning a little bit more and gaining confidence to go further. So, grab on with both hands and enjoy the ride. There will be ups and downs but the point is to just keep going. To keep trying and keep putting one foot in front of the other. To not stop. Never stop.
You only fail when you stop trying – Albert Einstein